Despite being a normally positive kind of person I can sometimes get in the glums and this challenging cold contributes to that.
Add car troubles, bill troubles, and work troubles into the equation and my mindset falls to boot level.
I chomped all this over in a downward plummet, tramping along in the raw fenland wind, cluttered up with clothing and staring at my boots, head down – that typical position of the downhearted, muttering in my head about it all. Not repeatable!
As the wind dropped a little I lifted my gaze and had a quick scan around me looking for something else to be miserable about – as you do when you’re in one of those mindsets.
Forcing watery eyes to the horizon – this sometimes lifts my mind and my mood – something caught my attention. Right on that uninterrupted line of distance; occasional flashes in the wintry sunshine.
Now, you have to imagine a marshland horizon with absolutely nothing on its distance till it becomes sky, the two almost indistinguishable. Yet I was sure I could see little ignitions of whiteness appearing and disappearing on the skyline. Too far away to capture with my camera.
Was I imagining it – I watched through runny vision. Yep – really there.
What were they?
Little bits of litter tossed by the wind? No; not out at sea and my eyes aren’t that good – I’m not superman!
Gulls? Not possible, too distant, wrong image; they were flashing on and gone.
Then I guessed.
They were only visible in one place – that one deep water place where marshland gives up to North Sea. And what I could see was the reflection of the low winter sunlight catching the tops of waves as the tide began to swell and the wind whipped up the surface.
Like the proverbial white horses, the far away waves rose up and tossed their manes between sea and sky and made a kind of magic show that you could only guess at.
I watched them rear and fall, ignite and sparkle and disappear, over and over. And in those moments troubles were tossed aside and mood uplifted with them.
Sometimes it’s helps not to just mooch along miserably staring at your boots!